Okay, I admit, I’ve not been good this week. It’s been a bit of a mixed bag with some party food and a nice dessert that perhaps should really have been avoided. (But I swear it was within my syns. Honest guv!)

Saturday afternoon saw my friend have a little birthday tea. It’s her birthday next week and her daughters birthday the week before so it was a joint celebration. The tea party was lovely but it did consist of lots of things that are lethal to the plan.

There wasn’t a lot there that was on plan. In fact, there were probably some strawberries and blueberries on show and that was it. My tastebuds unfortunately don’t do fruit so that was really bit bad. I think I may have over indulged and I know that I was definitely off plan and over synned.

On Sunday I went for lunch with my Mum and the wonderful Webbs. We had a meal at the local Beefeater which was really lovely. My mains was good. Gammon steak that I cut the fat off and a baked spud instead of chips, however it was followed by an apple crumble that was just incredible. So delicious and covered in custard. That perhaps didn’t help.

The rest of the week hasn’t really been that bad although perhaps I need to look at a few things. I did have a Belgian bun thing on Monday evening. That really made no sense to me if I’m honest. I went to Sainsburys and it was just sitting there for 55p. I couldn’t leave him there. I don’t know why I picked it up and why I practically inhaled the thing. I should be disappointed but god it was delicious.

The rest of the week hasn’t been so bad. My lunches have been full of baked potatoes and beans. (I’ve not cooked a chilli for a while) so I really need to change it up a bit this week.

I have been challenged by Alex this week. She’s come back to group after a bit of time away. She’s decided to compete and see who can lose the most weight in the next six weeks. 

It’s six weeks to my 50th birthday and six weeks to Alex running the Cardiff Half Marathon so the challenge is set. The loser then gets to take the other out for something nice. A meal, movie, show, gig something. I don’t know but I’m hoping I get to choose!! 🙂

Anyhow, this stone isn’t going anywhere at the moment. I’m hopeful that I can turn it around over the next week. I don’t foresee too many problems. I’m off out for a drink tomorrow but I’ll probably stick to the diet colas. Saturday I have a birthday get together with my mate in Newport but I’m going to drive to that one. 

Sunday may involve a nice long wander somewhere and Monday probably just recovering from that! 

I need a boost of determination. I need to become better in my mind with the plan and what to do. I need (again) to aim for something and pursue it. I must focus my effort now that the summer is over to be somewhere where I feel happy and more alive. 

We’ll see where we get.