An absolute disaster of a week this week. A food nightmare from start to finish resulting in a very hefty weight gain on the Scales of Doom this morning.

I normally weigh in the evening but as I’m on late shifts this week, I weighed in early at a different group.

It was a gain this week and oh boy, I gained massively. I knew that I would be going in with a gain but it was a bit of a shock to see just how much I had put on.

Needless to say, all of the good work has been pointless and I’m now back where I started. 

I have definitely NOT been thinking about what I’ve been putting in my face hole this week. I started the week badly and it just escalated.

My good friend had a nice little windfall on the Postcode Lottery last week and we went out with her children to celebrate at one of her local eateries and I just didn’t think about where I was.  Mum had yet another fall on Saturday night so I’ve been worried about her and how we can keep her mobile. We must need to look into sheltered accommodation for her now so that there are people on site who can respond to her when this happens. I don’t think that we’re at the care home level just yet but we do need to see where we need to be with carers and her home. 

There have been snacks and crisps all over the shop and my first instinct is just to put them straight in my mouth. Comfort eating I suppose is the issue here and it’s clearly a cycle that I have to try and break out if.

Your mental state is always something that’s going to affect the way that you lose weight. First off, I suppose you’ve got to want to do it. You have to set your mind to eating healthily and doing a bit of additional exercise when and where you can.

However, quite often things get in the way. The pressure of work and other factors like having a Mother who’s health is failing rapidly are going to affect your mindset and take you away from the plan.

Money is also a factor. Cheap things in supermarkets tend to be really bad for you whilst healthier options are more expensive. 

So with these three things in mind, the plan is the last thing that I’m thinking about and with this weeks result, it really shows.

I’m going to start up my food diary again. It’s been a few months since I last kept one. I need to write down everything that passes my lips and I mean everything. 

This last week will make very poor reading. Pringles, M&M’s, Chocolates, Welshcakes, Muchos crisps, more M&M’s, fried chicken, chips and a whole host of everything that’s really off plan.

I can pull it back and I know that I can but for me to do this at the moment is going to take a monumental effort.

If you do see me in Sainsbury’s this week, please have a look in my basket and chuck out anything in there that’s going to cause an issue. I want a loss of at least four pounds this week and it’s going to take a huge effort to do it.

I’m going to give myself that chance and concentrate hard on what I want to achieve this week. 

Losing the pounds that went on this week is my goal and to do that there is a lot of effort that needs to be put in.

Have I got that commitment? I think so.