Another couple of weeks since my last blog post again and I really do apologise that they seem to be getting fewer and increasingly far between. 

I can’t seem to get my head back into the right mode for losing weight. My brain just doesn’t want me to even seem to try to lose any more weight. 

I’ve told myself over the last few weeks that I’ll get myself back onto plan and then something happens and I find myself wandering around Sainsburys (other supermarkets are available) and picking up junk food. 

Perhaps I need to begin online shopping again to stop the temptation of Pringles and cakes and everything else that is delicious. 

I’ve been feeling fat too. I feel completely out of control and my weight is ballooning up and up. I just cannot get into the groove. 

The Mum

I did get to see her this week. There was a very brief video call on Saturday but luckily I had a window visit with her on the Sunday lunchtime. It was lovely to see her but she was so very confused again. She asked me if her parents were still with us and she told me that she had bought a little car as she thought she would be able to go somewhere. 

It upset me a little while talking to her. I had to talk her through the last 35 years or so since her father passed away and then the 20 years or so since her mother died. 

She was looking good but a bit shakey. She has some really lucid moments when you speak about current events with her but she really loses her train of thought really easily. 

I know that she’s not going to improve but I hope that when the covid situation disappears then I can see her more and perhaps it might give her a bit of a boost. I know it would help me. 

The House

Sold! 

Well, it’s very close to being sold. The offer was slightly lower than the selling price but it was better than the last one who had to pull out. I’m hopeful that this will be the one that gets things moving and with much luck then it will be done and dusted. 

I now need to get a van sorted out so that I can move some items around and look to get the washing machine up here. 

I’ve been advised to get an auctioneer to have a look at the items in the house to see if they’ll be able to get shot of some of the stuff to make a little bit more for her. 

Me

Not weighed for a while but have done a couple of walks. I decided like a fool on Saturday morning to do a walk up to the Ridgeway above Cefn Onn Park. I’ve not done this one for quite a while and oh I do wish I’d thought it through properly. My back is still aching from that one. 

I will get back to things but I just don’t want to weigh cos I know that it would depress me more.  I’ll have a good old think and hopefully another walk to bring myself back to life. 

Oh and I’m single again. So that lasted the usual amount of time that most of my relationships do. 

As usual, thanks for taking the time to read though another week of rubbish. I’ll try to think of something nice to report next time out.